Who knew when I woke up today and walked to work in the misty rain that so much brightness would be delivered!?!  I had an easy but productive day at work and just before I left I received a voicemail from a producer who just cast me in a show!!  I start rehearsals for it next week and I can’t wait!  It is IN THE CITY and it PAYS really well!!  As if THAT weren’t enough, I got a call from the casting director of a tour that I had been called back for in the fall.  They are interested in me for the replacement cast!  It even fits PERFECTLY into my schedule for the summer without my having to back out of any prior commitments!!!  And I know my roommates will take care of and love my Maverick while I am gone.  I will miss him, but it isn’t a REALLY long time.  It’s just enough time to be really worthwhile though!  I am so giddy.  AND I have someone I KNOW interested in subletting my room/taking care of Mav for me, so I can actually MAKE some money while I am working!  Also…I found out that they cast directly from my headshots and I booked that print ad!  I am going to make half the amount of money I owe on my credit card in 2 days work!!!!  And my full-time job is GIDDY for me!  I didn’t have to lie to them about what I am missing.  They support me entirely and I have this job for as long as I want it.  Which won’t be long….as I am about to get REALLY busy doing what I LOVE!!!!!  Who on earth knew things could get so WONDERFUL in one short day!?!?!

Oh…and I met someone…

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I am so fortunate to have such incredible friends!  I just realized this again today and figured I ought to document it since, when I don’t…it just feels so natural and completely normal, that I can’t even recall a time when I didn’t feel this supported, loved, and cared for.  That is how consistent they are.  I love to hear from them on the phone or online.  I look SO forward to hanging out with them!  Luckily I don’t have to wait that long as they are always calling to make plans with me.  Even when our lives get a little hectic and we can’t seem to see one another, that never stops them from picking up the phone and letting me know what’s going on (even in a voicemail).  I love knowing that I can do the same and they are so giddy to receive it.  Then, when we hang out..it is like no time has even passed .  They are just as supportive as they always were.  They make me feel so incredible.  They think I am absolutely hysterical, brilliant, and beautiful…and I can feel their confidence in me oozing from every moment of our time together.  I love that they share their lives with me.  I love that when something happens in their life…good, bad, or even in between…I am the first person they think of sharing it with.  They can’t wait to hear what I have to say about it.  They love the advice I give.  I love to see how my love for them inspires and supports them!    I adore them for making a trip to see me in nearly EVERYTHING I perform in.  Who knew they would have made the treck upstate so many times!  It is so wonderful to have such a strong support system, to know that my mom and brother are not the only people who wouldn’t think of missing a performance of mine!  I especially love their support on my birthday every year.  I thought I had to throw my own party, but they showed me that they really want to make sure my day is special and they always take care of everything.  The best part about this is that I have found so many other terrific friends as well.  I mean, these ones are special since we have been friends since college.  But, to know that…even after a few years thinking I was having a hard time finding new close friends…I had been cultivating some of the best friendships of my entire life!!!  Soooo magical!  All I ever feel is loved.  I couldn’t possibly feel more cared for.  I love having people who love me unconditionally and show me that as often as they possibly can.  I love having friends who allow me to care for them in the same way.  My friends are truly incredible and I am beyond blessed!

I just got in from finally performing my cabaret! It went soooooooooo much better than I had ever anticipated! I would have been happy just to have my family and a few close friends show up, but the whole place was packed and they had to add in extra seats! I can hardly believe how quickly it all came together once I got the idea and started writing. It seemed like I had waited so long to do this, but the timing just wasn’t right until NOW. As soon as I began writing, things began to fall into place. I had been nervous about how personal the story was, but once I met with my director he really helped me shape the show and was able to let me know which were the very best stories to tell. He made me feel better to reveal what I have truly been here and showed me how important and valuable it was to tell this story since I am SO not alone in this experience. He helped me find an amazing accompanist right away who was really excited to work with us and didn’t need much pay at all! This went better than I could have ever hoped for and it felt so incredible to be up there in front of everyone that means anything to me doing what I love. I was very nervous when I began, but it did not take long before I felt completely at ease and in the moment. I don’t think I have ever performed this well, and it meant so much more because I WROTE IT! I made this happen! I feel so powerful! Not only did my friends come, a few of them brought their agents…who really loved the show! I know a few of them are already interested in representing me! Of course these were goals of this project, but I just really wanted to get it up on it’s feet. WOW! I almost can’t believe it….but I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!